but it felt great.
i know i haven't been visible around here at all lately. i've been busy earning money, getting holes and tattoos and spending money on jewelry for the new holes.
i'm slowly running out of money for any mods though, so i guess my energies must be spent on something else for a while. which isn't so bad considering that i've had three sessions on a huge thigh-covering piece and traveled down south to scalpel my lobes, just in the span of a few months.
my artwork is something that has become personal, just for my own enjoyment and development, i don't think i could make much anymore that would please anyone here.
i mostly practice anatomy and perfecting the way i draw faces. it still irks me that the eyes are really difficult to align and focus, i screw up with that more than i don't.
still, there is a new painting on the way, only a very small one that i'm making just so i won't forget how to paint.
i've realized that i don't have that many agonizing feelings to share anymore that haven't been shared. there's nothing that spawns the dark people i once used to make.
no doubt i still have awful times, but i don't resort to painting when i do. artwork has turned from emotional and meaningful into practice and attempts to build technical skill and knowledge of the subjects. it's not particularly exciting in any other way than for myself that i can see that "whoah, i couldn't do this
last week!", and continue to perfect another tiny detail of the human form.
i would apologize, but i'm not really sorry. hopefully i will be able to make some interesting and beautiful work soon, but now is not that time. i don't have the skill yet to spend my time on something bigger that pleases me. sketches it is! dA is not the place for sketches.
thank you so much for reading, and i hope you can still enjoy whatever it is that i squeeze out from time to time.
here's that feature i promised my watchers last year:i was so slow with this that some files have been removed from dA, sorry ): Kazubyka conceptualCNS
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