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Long time no... journal?

Ehom, I want to use this small space here to write down some of my recent thoughts, since I don't usually do that anymore. I write only in short fragments in my notebooks really... and end up not understanding what I meant in the first place.

I've been working so hard with drawing lately and I try my best to learn as much as I can about anatomy first and foremost, also faces and expressions. I want the construction of a face to become second nature to me, something that I can do more or less with my eyes closed but that's still some ways away... I need references now and then but I found that that is not a weakness actually. Using references will let my work become more believable since I don't know every single item that drifts around in the universe. I can't imagine everything from different angles and different light sources, though I try.

What just struck me though is that occasionally when I look through my old (and very emotional) drawings and paintings I feel like I had so much more to share back then. There was something I was actively dealing with and that I needed to get out of my system, I had nightmares, I had insecurity and fear, I had various physical conditions piling up on me as result of those fears, stress and sadness. I still am scared, insecure, stressed and I occasionally have nightmares so awful I can't seem to sleep. Though something is different this time, I am no longer staring the fear and the pain in the eyes. I am distracting myself from it. If I hear of troubling news, or if I almost go under from worry, exhaustion and nerves, I don't actually draw it anymore and I don't deal with it like I used to. I just look away and do things that cheer me up. I draw happy and relaxed subjects or just make a bunch of sketches to practice.

But what am I practicing for? What am I preparing for? What am I waiting for?
I fear that even if many people around me are supportive, impressed and interested in my work, I'm afraid that I've hit a dead end of just technical practice and not so much expressing the things I feel and that I need to say. I'm afraid that I will be stuck just doodling the things that used to make me happy, trivial things until I get sick of it. Until I've wasted all my time and not made my mark on anyone.

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Lord Nossie Red.
Artist | Traditional Art
Finland
I'm Nossie.
I have red and black hair.
I like painting.

I am engaged with Impostor1.
I like him. He made my ID!1!!one
I like everything that's slimy, wet and possibly has tentacles.

I'm a brick.
With fragile corners.

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He is my second half.


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wwwEAMONREILLYdotCOM Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama.:D
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WilBear Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the llama and the chance to see your gallery. WoW its fantastic. The guys are awesome woof ("")
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Noss91 Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014   Traditional Artist
The llama was thank you! Thank you too! :) I'm glad you like iit~
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SPARTAN-WOLF Featured By Owner May 6, 2014
Thanks for the Lama.
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FeNovak-two-point-oh Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the Llama! :D
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Tonokan Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ayyy thank you for the :llama:! :heart: Neko Emoji-27 (Being kawaii) [V2] 
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kunako Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
Thank you for the fav!^^
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Kleevinar Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for your Llama.
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Tinvon-Tathren Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank You for  :llama: :hug:
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fungusmonster Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you for the lama, I love your art :)
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Noss91 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014   Traditional Artist
Thanks :heart:
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Inkwerk Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014
Many thanks for the :llama:
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Julia-EVS Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the llama..^^..
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NeoHasta Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
Thanks for the Llama.
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ToniTiger415 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch :D
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xxLythexx Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014
thank you for the llama <3
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hardriff Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014
gracias por la llama
tu estilo es grandioso
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Noss91 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014   Traditional Artist
gracias :)
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Ramalama63 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama!!
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Mandinga91 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
thanks a lot for the llama friend!
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D-C-P-Niszczyciel Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the watch~! ;>SpongeBob (Hahaha) 
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kentaurosman Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heya. Thanks for the awesome llama. Say, what if I said I could draw somethin' for ya? Sound good?
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Noss91 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014   Traditional Artist
Really? :D I would love that :D
I'm lame, so I'll as always ask for pictures of him: noss91.deviantart.com/gallery/…
haha, it's ttly cool if you don't want to though =p
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CountVonSalem Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014
Thanks for the llama :)
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fujoshi-sama801 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014
thx for the llama!
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