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Long time no... journal?

Ehom, I want to use this small space here to write down some of my recent thoughts, since I don't usually do that anymore. I write only in short fragments in my notebooks really... and end up not understanding what I meant in the first place.

I've been working so hard with drawing lately and I try my best to learn as much as I can about anatomy first and foremost, also faces and expressions. I want the construction of a face to become second nature to me, something that I can do more or less with my eyes closed but that's still some ways away... I need references now and then but I found that that is not a weakness actually. Using references will let my work become more believable since I don't know every single item that drifts around in the universe. I can't imagine everything from different angles and different light sources, though I try.

What just struck me though is that occasionally when I look through my old (and very emotional) drawings and paintings I feel like I had so much more to share back then. There was something I was actively dealing with and that I needed to get out of my system, I had nightmares, I had insecurity and fear, I had various physical conditions piling up on me as result of those fears, stress and sadness. I still am scared, insecure, stressed and I occasionally have nightmares so awful I can't seem to sleep. Though something is different this time, I am no longer staring the fear and the pain in the eyes. I am distracting myself from it. If I hear of troubling news, or if I almost go under from worry, exhaustion and nerves, I don't actually draw it anymore and I don't deal with it like I used to. I just look away and do things that cheer me up. I draw happy and relaxed subjects or just make a bunch of sketches to practice.

But what am I practicing for? What am I preparing for? What am I waiting for?
I fear that even if many people around me are supportive, impressed and interested in my work, I'm afraid that I've hit a dead end of just technical practice and not so much expressing the things I feel and that I need to say. I'm afraid that I will be stuck just doodling the things that used to make me happy, trivial things until I get sick of it. Until I've wasted all my time and not made my mark on anyone.

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Lord Nossie Red.
Artist | Traditional Art
I'm Nossie.
I have red and black hair.
I like painting.

I am engaged with Impostor1.
I like him. He made my ID!1!!one
I like everything that's slimy, wet and possibly has tentacles.

I'm a brick.
With fragile corners.

He is my second half.


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lovemaykillyou Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014  New member Professional Traditional Artist
Make some art! 
Noss91 Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014   Traditional Artist
I do all the time lately ;) I suppose they're not genius, but it keeps me entertained :)
kerostar23 Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thank You Very Kindly For The Llama! ^-^ :hug:
wwwEAMONREILLYdotCOM Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama.:D
WilBear Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the llama and the chance to see your gallery. WoW its fantastic. The guys are awesome woof ("")
Noss91 Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014   Traditional Artist
The llama was thank you! Thank you too! :) I'm glad you like iit~
SPARTAN-WOLF Featured By Owner May 6, 2014
Thanks for the Lama.
FeNovak-two-point-oh Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the Llama! :D
Tonokan Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ayyy thank you for the :llama:! :heart: Neko Emoji-27 (Being kawaii) [V2] 
kunako Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
Thank you for the fav!^^
DarkDraconar Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for your Llama.
Tinvon-Tathren Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank You for  :llama: :hug:
fungusmonster Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you for the lama, I love your art :)
Noss91 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014   Traditional Artist
Thanks :heart:
Inkwerk Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014
Many thanks for the :llama:
Julia-EVS Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the llama..^^..
NeoHasta Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
Thanks for the Llama.
ToniTiger415 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch :D
xxLythexx Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014
thank you for the llama <3
hardriff Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014
gracias por la llama
tu estilo es grandioso
Noss91 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014   Traditional Artist
gracias :)
Ramalama63 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama!!
Mandinga91 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
thanks a lot for the llama friend!
D-C-P-Niszczyciel Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the watch~! ;>SpongeBob (Hahaha) 
kentaurosman Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heya. Thanks for the awesome llama. Say, what if I said I could draw somethin' for ya? Sound good?
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